December 1st, 2009 
Jojo Agot 
I have been trying to write something about grief for the past few days but so far I can’t seem to find the right words to write. Either the story is too personal to share or the idea is too shallow for such a profound subject as grief.
I actually have two stories in file. One is about the death of my father five years ago and the other is the grief and depression that I went through after I resigned from the ministry in 2006. Both events left me devastated for longer periods of time. Both made significant impact on the life I’m living today.
The thing is that I have no idea how to write about those painful memories without getting emotional. Besides, I don’t want to litter my blog with my private anguish so I decided to settle with a little video piracy here. Below you will see a fan-made video clip of Mercy Me’s song HOMESICK. What I couldn’t say or write, Mercy Me articulated beautifully in this touching song about losing someone so dear. I cried the first time I watched this. I cried again a while ago while I was embedding this song to my blog. Even if you know the song, just go ahead and watch it in the context of today’s Blog Carnival topic on grief. I’m sure you’ll appreciate it more than ever before. For those who are still on the process of grieving, let this song help you go through your ordeal.
Oh and just a side note, you might want to prepare Kleenex before you play the video. (If the video doesn’t work, click this Youtube link.)
Help me Lord cause I don’t understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I’ll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I’m still here so far away from home
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Sometimes words can’t express the grief. Sometimes it’s music that does it. Like this time. Thanks for sharing the video — and the grief behind it.
Music has always helped me process stuff in my head. I'm not really fond of posting videos (this is the first) but I think the message is so compelling I need to share it with everyone else. Thanks for dropping by Glynn.
Thanks for your comment and for directing me here. That's a great MM song! They have several songs about grief. I think of Bart Millard and Steven Curtis Chapman and C.S. Lewis and other creative minds who have turned their grief into musical and literary vehicles that deliver peace and comfort to others who are hurting. I hope I can remember not to let my grief eat me from the inside out but that maybe someday I will able to use this experience to help others who are hurting. Thanks for sharing this post.
wow…beautiful song…thanks for sharing.
i've always found that i can express my feelings better through song, whether my own or someone else's, and Mercy Me just put my feelings today into that song.
I love this song. It helped me cope with a profound loss in my life too. Bless you for sharing it.
God bless Mercy Me!
Thanks MarniW.
I also love Steven Curtis Chapman's WITH HOPE. The message is similar to this one but in my case, Mercy Me's tune just stuck in my head. Now that you mentioned it, I will have to look for Bart Millard and CS Lewis(?) music too. Thanks for the tip!
Me too, I like it that they can put together a lot of meaning into just a few words. They preach louder, their message is clearer and they do it in less than 5 minutes!
Thanks for dropping by tsholo.
Thank you for sharing your emotions with us today. Song is such a great way to do it!
Hi Peter, thanks for dropping by.
That song just breaks my heart every time I hear it.
Oh, my … how very true when our heart goes "home" with someone we love so dearly yet we remain behind.
I love how music can convey our emotions so beautifully when we can’t get it out ourselves. Thank you and blessings…
Beautiful and powerful song! Thanks for sharing it!
One of my favorites as well. Sometimes music touches our hearts and souls where mere words cannot. Thank you for sharing.
As everyone has said, music is such a wonderful way to show/share your feelings and emotions. I love this song and am glad you posted it!
Wow — I love this song. Very powerful. Thank you for sharing it.
Thank you for posting this song. I've not heard it before but am quite certain I have felt it for longer than I care to admit.
Sometimes being out of place is a good thing but it can be painful nevertheless.
Blessings to you!
Jason, Susan, jasonS, Kevin:
Thank you for dropping by. May we always find encouragement in one another. Songs like this are always worth sharing. It's amazing how the body of Christ from different parts of the world find something meaningful in this one song.
You're right, even if we know God's reasons for allowing things to happen, we grieve all the same. I guess it's not so much about our knowing but how much we trust Him whether we understand His ways or not.
katdish, Bridget, M. Louise:
I'm glad you guys dropped by. I can see now that I'm not the only one who finds blessing while listening to this song.
I believe that there is a proper way to grieve, and broadcasting it isn't the best. I think that's only asking for "infection" to enter in and for things to get messy (in most situations, I'm sure there has to be exceptions) great thoughts!
Jake, I agree with you on that. Grieving people should be careful not to infect others. On the other hand, friends of grieving people should also be a bit more understanding.
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